A person with objective. I want to be one, but it’s only in my head. The fact is I want my life flows as it is. I do what I like, I love what I do. I don’t want to carry any life burden. I don’t like to think what I should have become if I have persistence … no … a single objective in my life and perseverance to do that.
I would describe my self with something like No Plan, No Suffering, No Trouble, Nothing in the way between me and what I love to do. I will very angry if someone gets in the way between me and my daily life.
At some point I even think, if I got an accident, I would still prefer to go home to do my routine than going to a hospital. Well, after all, I did have a persistence to do things, unuseful one.
I was attracted to all motivational speakers like Tony Robbin, but in fact I am still suspicious to them even after seeing how successful they are. Anybody can be successful if they focus on one thing. I think all of us have the capability to do that, we are a superior creature.
Well, after all, we are one of a creation. A creation always limited by their nature. This is why I always can’t understand Buddhism, How can a man be a God? How can a man called Siddhartha Gautama able to pull out an enlightenment out of nothing? Suffering doesn’t make people’s character changes drastically. The understanding of it, makes people changes their way of life. I guess, that’s Buddhism!
Everybody said, you are the God of your own life! You are the one who decide your future! Only you and no one else! For me, that’s a way to enslave people’s thoughts from seeing the truth. Every day you go to work, you are not a free man. You are controlled by law, culture, social obedience. Definitely, you are not a God of yourself, if you don’t have an absolute free will to decide everything on your own.
I don’t know how many people understand this, but it’s just an absolute absurd way of life.