Sometimes a thought pops up in my head, thinking "who am I? why I blogging? who the hell care?". The problem with this thought is you do it for people to read your blog, for money? for something outside your control.
Women your type are amazing, but sometimes you don't have the opportunities to make a move. You feel so annoyed by yourself and your achievement resulting in a very bold statement "I'm not worth of love", "I am not worth of this woman", "I am not worth of this life".